Counting down is an under statement!
I have so many emotions swirling up inside, it's ridiculous. Part of me is sooo ready to have this baby. Ready to hold him/her. Ready to be a mommy. Ready to see my wonderful husband hold his baby.
The other part is scared….shitless actually. Scared of the unknown. Scared that after this entire journey our baby won't be healthy. Scared that I am not going to be a natural parent.
I am sure that every FTM thinks the same things, but I just got to let it out!
Just thinking about holding my baby makes me tear up. Come on little kub!!!
On to a lighter side: My body feels like that of a 90 year old. I wish I was joking. My legs & feet are so swollen. My hips & pelvis feel like they are going to give out on me. My muscles have sharp shooting pains. I have easily put on 40 lbs. The baby is running out of room. I feel like crap 90% of the time. Feels great getting all of this out! I hate complaining to my friends, family or husband, because I am the one who decided to take this big step to be a mommy. Done.
Kub- Mommy & Daddy can’t wait to meet you!
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