Come On December!

Usually I am not one who wants to rush through life (especially now that we have Karson), but like my title says "Come On December!"  I can't believe our little monster turned seven months old this month. Talk about a reality check! I am counting down the days for one reason only, this college semester will be over with!!! Like I had imagined, this semester has been my most challenging EVER. Not only because of the added responsibility, but for the fact I can not do chemistry (it is seriously like reading Chinese). You would think I was embellishing, but sadly I AM NOT! Ask my baby cousin Ryan, he will tell ya (he has the unfortunate job of being my lab partner). The faster my epic struggle goes, the less I can stress about it. I do not take to failing or quitting easily (I have never had a C in college & only three B's-what would you know all in science and math, I am sensing a pattern). Since I have started this class, every day I wake up disappointed in myself. Therefore, I can not fully enjoy anything, which is so unfair to myself and the people around me. I don't have the time to dedicate to excelling in this class, I would need a lot of special attention from a private tutor. Its so frustrating to want to learn this material and not being able to. I am having a hard time dealing with this, because frankly it has never happened to me. All I keep telling myself is that I will get through this, all I need is a C. All I need is a 3.0 GPA in my six sciences to apply to nursing school. As I am writing this, I have already given into my relentless nature to be the best. Why am I so hard on myself when it comes to school?!? Why can't I just enjoy everyday life and separate college from it?

Now that I have said my peace about school, come on next week! Kurt starts his new job Thursday and my excitement can not be contained! We will have our family together every evening. I will be able to eat dinner with my husband. Kurt will be home to play, bathe and put Karson to bed. We can have Mommy/Daddy time. I don't believe this is happening. It seems surreal. This is such a huge change to our lives and I am sure it will take some time to adjust, but this is what we have wanted since Kurt & I started our shift work jobs almost three years ago. After Karson was in the picture, Kurt was absolutely miserable. He wanted nothing more than to be home with us. It didn't help his job was about 80 miles round trip. I couldn't imagine having to drive that much to go to and from work, of course I hate driving. Having Kurt on day shift less than five miles from our house takes so much stress away from our family. Now we can get serious about adding more monsters to our clan! Managing our time will be so much easier. Maybe I will also have some time to craft & work on homework actually at home and not just at work.

While we are onto that topic, our weekend getaway was awesome! We started off on our adventure Friday afternoon, after a long and uncomfortable four hour ride we arrived to Deep Creek! Our friends had been there some time and started the party off on the dock. Kurt & I dug out the cooler for our first worry free beers in seventeen months. (This is the complete truth for me!) Even though I was worrying just a little, I did just leave my baby. We enjoyed our first night there, hot tub time was the best. I made a promise to myself to do everything that I will have to take a leave of absence from once I (hopefully) get pregnant again. This meant a lot of hot tub, beer & sleep! Saturday morning I woke up with a slight headache, I can't remember the last time I had ten beers (I know, I am so crazy, haha!) It didn't help I woke up at 6am, that would be my internal Momma alarm clock. Unfortunately, it rained all day, which cancelled our boat trip. We played a lot of games and took a trip to the movies. Ahhh the movies, how much I miss them. When people ask me if I miss going out, I honestly answer no! I totally miss going to the movies though!!! Saturday night Kurt was starting to get a little nervous, he was ready to get back to Karson. Sunday as we left, we were counting down to get back to him. He survived, we survived, we knew it would be okay. He had Grammy & C-Pops, I was able to call anytime I felt some anxiety, but for the most part we just enjoyed our special grown up time. The hardest part was the initial leaving, but Kurt had a strategy, he asked me about school (since you read the comments above, you could gather how easily that occupied my mind). Overall, we had a wonderful time together and with our friends (its so cool to watch all of our friends at different stages of life).

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Saturday is Karson's first pageant, we are super excited and looking forward to it. Stay tuned for the outcome and pictures! We might have a local celebrity on our hands.